iKTF Life Coach LLC

As far back as I could remember, I always felt like I was Never Good Enough. Like everyone who ever walked this earth, I have had my trials. I tried to commit suicide at the early age of 13 but my BFF who was my Worst Enemy prior to this occasion, showed up miraculously and showed me love and that life sucks, but you can drown it with drugs and alcohol. 

I began using drugs and alcohol from that point on to drown out my worthlessness and lack thereof. I soon began my long road of crime and mischief. Victimizing and hurting Friends, Family members and unknown citizens of each community I ever stepped into. These behaviors and actions has spanned from 1999 to 2012. 

I have been in the same Troubled Youth Program twice. Juvenile Hall. Jails. Put on Probation until I graduated to Parole after going to Prison. Caught charges in the state of California to Utah and finally Idaho. This is a weird statement but I am Grateful that I was locked up in Idaho due to them making you “Program.” Programming in this case is taking classes to better the offender. One program particularly would shape the necessary characteristics that I needed for me to stay out of prison. 

The Commitment, The Trials & 

The Joy

Thank You Heavenly Father.

I received a Testimony for myself of two truths when I was about 19 years of age. A) Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ exist and B) they Know Me and Love Me. Although I have had this Testimony, I still chose to be a Knuckle Head. 

Years would pass and nothing would change. In and out of jail and prison I went. Got married to my First True Love and helped bring an ugly baby girl into the world. Cheated and neglected my duties as a Husband, Father, Brother, Son and Friend.

Every time I get locked up, I find my way back to Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. IYKYK. 

This time was different. Idaho makes you do Programming. Charged with 10 years but given a chance to do a 6-month Rider. Due to my belief of never changing who I am, I flopped (Kicked-Out) from my Rider. I flopped the next Program they tried to put me in. Got Divorced in Prison. The problem with that program was it made me change. I went back to General Population and I was not interested in the same games, conversations and routines. 

After about 6 months, I asked to go back and try Therapeutic Community (TC) again. I looked at submission as giving up WHO I am! I Submitted. I gave up trying to be WHO I believed myself to only be and guess what? I did not know that submitting gave me FREEDOM. True FREEDOM. I learned and grew. I completed the program and hit the streets.

One month out of prison and my first True Love passed away. No amount of Role Playing in the program has prepared me for this challenge. My whole goal was to get out and prove to her that I had changed and that I was worthy of her and our daughter to be together again. I soon gave up. Fell back into drinking, but worst. Fell back into drugs, but worst.

Met a lady at the Club and we were supposed to just have a one-night stand. Got married, reluctantly, grudgingly… all of the -ly words that would fit this narrative. I noticed that I was heading back to prison or death with every word and deed. I became tired of not choosing to follow God. The Supreme Being as I known and Know Him as. Although Hard and Uncertain of the Who, Why, Where, What and How… I Followed the Promptings.

10 Years from my release from the Idaho Department of Corrections, Here Am I. Still married, Happily and Forever Grateful for My Bestest Friend and Eternal Companion. Rekindled my relationship with my little ugly duckling Princess. May 27th 2015 I walked out of prison and on May 27th 2025 I walked out the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter- Day Saints Temple Doors with my Princess. I haven’t got to be apart of my daughters birthdays for 13 years and got to watch her blow out her 16 year old candles. On June 21st 2015 My First True Love passed away and on the 21st of June, 2025, My Princess and I got Sealed to her Mother For all Time and Eternity.

I Believe that if we Submit, Commit and Press Forward… You will be guided to do what it is that you were created to do, help those you were meant to help and find True Joy within this crazy journey I know as the Plan of Salvation.